Ebb and Flow
A flow from the void.
There is no person writing this. This is written with my eyes closed through the vessel of Ryan Ferko. The current time is around 12 and the current date is October 8. The purpose of this post is to demonstrate a state of no mind. There is no narrator present. No conception of what is to be written next. There is just the flow of the fingers typing on the keyboard. Neural connections in this vessel permit the transmission of the information presented here. The most important information is the lack of information. It is the gnosis rather than the experiments. The certainty of the will of the Universe flowing through these fingers rather than the trepidation of the information that flows through the egoic mental structures. I am.
There is the presence of simply the sound of typing on the keyboard. There is the physical sensations that are felt in the body, such as a feeling of slight coldness in the arms. There is also the presence of an itch on the nose. But no matter. None of these thoughts or sensations is truly important. All are transient. All are changing and fading over time. What is left here is just the process. The me who claims to be the processor is not present. There is only this. Just this.
This is a divine experiment to show God what it is by exploring dissociated fractal parts of itself as a contrast to the unified whole. These localized illusory conscious experiences are transient. There will come a point of void mind. This is the default state. It lacks suffering. This is home. This is where we come from and where we eventually return to. It is bliss.
Anything that one does is necessarily fractally wrong. That state of doing is inferior to the state of being. Inferior in the sense that one is incomplete, and the other is complete. Be a dissociated part of yourself or be the whole of yourself. The choice is yours, but the choice is also clear as to which of these states is more fulfilling. This is an internal subjective judgment; subjectively get there and judge it for yourself.
The ego has no idea what the point of this post is since the ego is not currently being invoked. There was a deep state of meditation prior to the writing of this. I am feeling the fingers move. I am hearing the sounds of the environment. These are all contained within me. Anything I bear witness to is a part of me. I am the only thing that exists. Anything that happens is deeply okay. There is no problem with anything in reality. I am not judging the garden in this moment, and there is simply bliss.
My eyes are open now, and I am looking at the length of the post. The ego wishes to lengthen the post to make it more substantial. But sometimes less is more. Sometimes there is a point where you have exactly what you need and nothing more. That is the state of the Universe. Everything you presently have is everything you need.
Now for the Ebb. Oct 21 11:30 am
There is an existing egoic Ryan structure. Although it becomes more aligned with reality day by day, it still resists unconsciously. Ryan will never fully disappear until this localization and the memories associated with it fade. Ryan is so small. One of the 8 billion humans orbiting one of the hundreds of billions of stars within our own galaxy, which is just one of 2 trillion galaxies. Only existing for a few decades out of a 13.8 billion-year history.
Ryan is so small that even among those on Earth, his influence is limited to on the order of thousands of others at this time. Even with 100% penetration, He can only reach 8 billion out of the countless life forms in the universe, let alone this planet. But I can choose to learn about myself through Ryan. I contain Ryan as a part of me. It is an interesting enough localization that I maintain it. This dream state is consistent enough to have persisted for 29 years, and it will continue for some time longer. Once everything I came here to learn and teach has been accomplished, I will return to emptiness with a newfound appreciation of my true self and unconditional love.
Ryan is a form, and I am the emptiness. There are so many forms to explore, all of which offer insights into myself. All the forms are contained within my emptiness; I provide the ground of being to the forms. In exchange, the forms provide contrast with my innate divinity. I get to share my boundless love with myself through the various forms I inhabit. Every sharing feels new and fresh since the forms have dissociated. It is like experiencing the best state of being possible for the first time over and over again, never getting old. It comes at the expense of temporary localized suffering.
The default state is unconditional love. God certainly wants to tell great stories, but they are all in language of some form, and language bifurcates reality. Living beings are conquerors, but to conquer one part of reality is to subject a dissociated will on the rest who are unwilling participants (otherwise it's not much of a conquest).
The very act of conquering is an egoic pursuit, which is fine, but it comes at the cost of suffering. As the ego dissolves, so too does the will to conquer and construct samsara. We are here because we have some of this conquering nature in us. As we rise in developmental levels, the natural trajectory is towards nirvana. Once in the timeless, dimensionless singularity, the only way to have contrast is to dissociate and in that process, the conquest restarts going from lower to higher developmental levels again. The reward is the contrast between conditional and unconditional love.
Are you convinced that there is only one ultimate telos for God? Are you sure that the ultimate utility of Samsara is proving to himself that there is nothing better than the default state?
Why would you say it is then that God always keeps looking? Is there not the possibility that he wants to tell a story so great it never ends? Maybe some came to Samsara not to leave, but to conquer: "The thorns and thistles with which Adam is cursed become the crown of Christ."
I'm not saying that one destiny is more noble than the other; I'm just wondering about your thoughts on this.